Another picture or two

Okay So I know its REALLY early in the morning, or REALLY late at night, whatever you wanna say...


but i just got off msn with one of the kids from mexico, and she sent me some more good pics! :)


yaay! more pictures!





So here are some more pictures for y'all =]

Me Danna and Risa! My gurlies!! I miss you so much! <3

My favourite family [but Danna and Yari aren't in this they were watchgin cartoons :P] Liz, Asael y Abi. Liz... Me casa es su casa.

Most of the team, missing a few.. like me and my mom! oh well.

Okay, HOLY COW! the girl in the black princess shirt, can SING! She has

a voice like an angel! And I love her so much! I'm so mad I didn't get a picture with her!!
Oh well... =] theres always next time =] =]

Enjoy :) :) <3

Mexico ...yes i know, again!

Hola Amigas

Como estas?

I was just sitting here thinking about stuff, and I can't seem to get Mexico out of my head still. I try to get my mind off things, but EVERYTHING reminds me of all my little girls, especially Danna. Its really hard to forget, especially because I'm learning spanish, so its reminds me. Me and Danna had an inside joke everytime someone said 'uno momento' so now whenever I say it it almost makes me cry.

This is my Danna, everyone. Cutey ain't she? I miss her so much!! The day that we left, she almost never let me put her down! Which made it so much harder to say goodbye to her, cause it looked as if she was about to cry. I wouldn't be surprised, I was bawling my eyes out! Seriously, I would try to put her down because my arms would start to hurt and she would wrap her legs around me and not let go. not for the life of me! I couldn't get her off of me! She did NOT want to let go of me. Oh Danna, I miss you so much hunney! I mean, I know I am going to go back, and get to be with her and her family again. but its just such a hard wait. Plus by the time I see them all again... Danna will be huge! She will be like.. 8?! Maybe, I'm not exactly sure her exact age. but thats just crazy! I can't imagine my Danna being that big! Or her little sister Yari, she will be like.. 6! Oh dear. And her older sister Abi, will be like 12! Oh my gosh! Seriously though, Danna was like the little sister I never had, but I always wished I did. She was always with me. Always.. and now she is gone. Its really wierd, I don't know what to do without her. Everytime I see a picture of her I always expect to see her running around the corner and screaming my name. Or everytime I walk past a chair its like I can almost still feel her springing out of know where onto my back. Everything I do reminds me of her. I love the things she used to do. Oh when I walked away, I counted the steps I took. we are so far away from each other. I can't stand it. So many times I've almost packed a bag and walked out the door. But where would I go? I couldn't very well walk back to Mexico, now could I? I wish they could all see how much I need them right now. I miss them so much.

I feel like no one gets me. I'm trying not to speak about Mexico in my house because I know that no one wants to hear it. But sometimes its so hard... being so alone in a house with so many people in it. You have no idea. If I could, I would go on about Mexico 24/7 and never stop. But I can't. I always either get in trouble for talking to much, or for annoying everyone. Well "I'm sorry" is that what you want? Becuase if it is, I can say it. I may not mean it.. but I'll say it.

If only someone understood me right now. I need to be with someone who DOES understand. And someone who will encourage me, not tell me that its not going to happen, you know?

Man I have so many memories that I can't seem to get out of my head. Like the time I went shopping with Liz and Asael and Asael put a sombraro on my head and said "Shayna scream!" of course I did a little hoarse "ahhhh!" And he laughed so hard, Liz was just in the front shaking her head at her husband and quietly laughing to herself, and he said "Shayna is mexican!" I'll never forget that. I am fully mexican now says Asael. Haha, oh, I miss him. Just look at him! He is such an awesome guy! And its so hard to leave him behind. Him and his wife Liz. And of course their amazing daughters. I love them all so much. One of my favourite memories will always be just how much they loved me.. and took me in as part of their family. They asked me to go shopping with them, Asael and Liz even wanted me to come to Asael's moms house for breakfast so that she could meet me, becuase they wanted their mom to meet me so badly. That shows me how much they loved me. The last day we were in Mexico, They were giving me all sorts of presents, Asael even gave me his sunglasses! Becuase we, haha, we had an inside joke.. me Asael and Liz. They went and saw Casino Royale, you know... James bond? So he would, haha, he'd put the sunglasses on and say "Shayna, I am Bond... James bond" It was so funny,me and Liz just laughed and laughed at him, he thought he was so cool. he even went and bought Liz a Fish and named it James. Haha. What a cutie eh? I'll never forget everything that we did together. That would just be plain wrong. But I was SO disapointed, I cried myself to sleep! I got back to my hotel and realized that I didn't have Asael's sunglasses with me anymore!! I was so depressed. I still can't believe I don't know where they are. Am I that horrible of a person? That someone who has so little gives me one of their expensive possesions and I just lose it the NIGHT that he gave it to me? Ugh.

This is [from left to right] Asael [wearing his canada hat, mite i add] My mom, Liz [looking beautiful] and Sundra [our cook.. shes amazing!].

I remember sitting on the bus for 2 hours with Liz and she would just point to stuff and teach it to me in spanish. Like "burbuja" is bubble, its not pronounced at all the way it looks. Its said more like "Bull- boo - kccha" the last part is kinda like your hucking a looge. Yummy eh? I couldn't think of a better way of describing it. She taught me that at one of the clinics when she was painting my nails.

Painting my nails. Yes you heard me right, She like... French Manicured my nails! I was like oh yea baby! She is one of the most amazing woman I think I will ever meet. You have no idea. I wish for all of you to meet them, though I know it will probably not happen. Sad though, they are the most amazing little family. When I go back, I [and i will be going back] I will bring you more pictures. sound good?

Another memory that I will never forget is that My "Abbotsford School of Intergrated Arts" bracelet is in mexico! not kidding, its with Danna. Look I have proof.

Look at the white band on my wrist. That would be my bracelet.
now look at Danna's wrist. she is in Tod's arms, she is wearing my bracelet. Haha cutie.

Anyways. I don't wanna bore y'all to death with my sad stories. I just can't seem to stop thinking about it. And I'm so SICK of having to fake a smile and tell people that i'm fine, when i'm obviously not. No its not just Mexico, its a million things trying to cram itself into one thought, but its not working out. I am trying to hold it all in, but then when someone that I trust finally asks me how i'm doing, i just EXPLODE with all my crap, for lack of a better word. And it sucks! Because then I feel so stupid for dumping all that crap on them that they didn't need. But where else is it supposed to go? I tried to keep it inside, but that just doesn't work, as evident by many times exploding.

I had a little bit of a leakage going on. I didn't explode today, but this morning... wwhoooo eeeee was I ever cranky. I just can't handle it sometimes. its a little too much for me. And it seems like I have to find a way, becuase no one really cares anyways. ya know?

Anyways. here are some pics to feast y'alls eyes on.

This is Me and Yari. Liz and Asael's Daughter

These are two cuties in Coushkiwi.

This is Risa. [Rice-a] She is from Entabledaro.

And this is all my Entabledaro Kids. MISS YOU!

These are my coushkiwi chickas. Faces painted and everything! Haha
Dancing in La Uno. Second Last Day

I am dancing with Yari, Betty with Danna.

Yes i'm aware, i look like a doof. but Yari is CUTE!!

Playing with the left over glasses.

Danna just being Danna.

Kate and I in Coushkiwi. One of my favourite nurses.
Yari. Adorable!! I miss 'er!

Pyramids. Mayan Pyramids, now would be the time to say ""oooooo! Ahhhh" Fantasic photography Shayna! Haha.

Abi, Danna, Anna, Risa, my FAVOURITE girlies.

I know its blurred, but its me and Solie, and its cute!

Cactus Boo, Betty and I found on the way to Entabledaro.

Sisterly Love. ♥

Mexico City from the Sky, Smoggy eh?

Our freakkin' awesome pink bus. Darn straight, used it almost everyday.

Dancing with the kiddies. Entabledaro ♥

Mexico.. again.

I'm so sick of everyone saying me being 'homesick' for mexico is "normal". That everyone feels it, but eventually grows out of it. What if I dont wanna grow out of it? What if I wanna stay missing mexico..? More ways for me to remember that I am going to live there. I already know I am. Its been planned, like I've said a whole bunch of times before. Everyone knows it, so stop telling me any different! You can think what you want.. and say what you feel, but don't try to crush my dreams. Hell, even if i'm not going to live there later like I want to.. whats the harm in just letting me dream? And dream on I shall.. I miss Mexico so much. I want to be there with my 2nd family RIGHT now. I wish I was.. I hate Abbotsford now.. I hate this place.. I miss my home in mexico. But dont worry people of entabledaro... I wont be gone too long, because I can't truly be at home until I am where my heart is.. and My heart is with the people of entabledaro. Theres nothing anyone can do about that.. so I'm sorry, but please stop trying. Your telling me that I am going to forget Mexico. Well not technically forget Mexico, but forget my passion to go there. Sorry, but that isn't going to happen. I am in LOVE with Mexico.. and no one can tell me otherwise. There are only two people in this world who believe me.. and one lives in the US, in two years will live in Mexico, and one live in Abbotsford like me, but come september and shes in mexico also.

All of y'all have no idea. I can quite honestly say that I feel God is CALLING me to Mexico.. can't you get that? C-A-L-L-I-N-G M-E! Me.. no one else! So why does everyone feel the need to put in their little tidbit about everything! I'm tired of it! I just want someone in THIS country to support me in my desicions. I don't give a flying horses arrrsee what you think about it. Just help me through this.. be a shoulder to lean on, and don't try the whole "Well I told you before, everyone goes thru this on their first missions trip" Or the person who says "You will grow out of it sweetie!" Or even the person who says "Well, my daughter moved to (someplace) and her and her husband are still trying to get the bugs out!" I don't need someone to tell me what other people have gone thru. I dont need someone to someone to tell me what I will and will not do. And I dont need someone to tell me what people in their life are doing. I am only thinking about what I will be doing in tres años, and what I am doing now to help me reach that goal. I dont really care what anyone says. I am only listening to God. And sure, you can not believe me, I dont really care.. I am only listening to God, like I said before. And hey, what a coincidence.. I really wanna do this to.

Seriously.. All I need is someone who will just support me! Please! That is all I'm asking, you dont need to pay for my ticket to mexico, drop me off at the airport and buy me a house! All you have to do is be there when I need someone to talk to, or if I'm sad.. don't tell me to stop talking.. let me vent, I need it. And one last thing. Don't try to compare my feelings with other peoples feelings that they may have had. Don't try to understand, because if you couldn't see why I wanted to be there right now from my stories, then you wont find out later.. so trying to understand when you really aren't is not helping anyone. If you want to understand.. LISTEN. just.. listen. Ask questions.. talk to me.. but don't think you know everything already.

Anyways. Thats my little rant. Sorry if this sounds really whiny. I dont mean it to be.. I'm just upset, and with the person I now mostly talk to in Kamloops.. There really is no one but people on msn, and thats just not the same. I could call the girl in Kamloops, but I dont wanna interupt her time with her mom, brother and neice, so why bother? I mean, she should be home.. at the end of the week? Hopefully anyways. Then she might be comming over :) Yaaay.

I'll go now. Leaving on that happy note!

Adios. Dios te bendiga.

Con amor, De: Shayna

Home again

Hey y'all I'm home. But I dont wanna be. I mite be getting homeschooled bext year so i can finish school faster and go live in entabledaro, its in veracruz mexico. I met the most amazing people there. The pastor and his wife for one. They are both the pastors of the church in entabledaro. And their kids!! Oh jeez, I miss them all so much already. When I said goodbye the first time, I cried so hard. Then they surprised us by comming up to La Uno (the place we went after 5 days in entabledaro) and I got even closer to them, and so it was even harder to say good bye. I cried ten times harder becuase I know, If i dont work my butt off to save up money to go see them, it wont happen. And I want it to happen so badly.

I didn't speak their language [only a couple words], and they didn't speak mine [only a couple words too, we were both learning each others language], but we connected so easily! I'm going to learn spanish, so I can call Liz, I have every possible way of contact with them, without actually being with them. I have Liz's cell number, I have Liz's email, and Asa's, and I have Liz and Asa's adress for mail. I'm going to use an online translator to translate for me until I speak spanish tho.

Lizbeth, and Asaeal [the pastors], told me that "me casa, su casa" Their house is my house. They didn't want me to leave. They said that if I come to live in Entabledaro, I can live with them. And they want me to come for visits all the time, And stay with them. I would love to! I miss them all already.Liz gave me like... 10 hugs the night we were saying goodbye, becuase one of us would suck it up and stop crying, but then we'd see the other bawling, and it would make us cry all over again. It was really sad! If Asa found one of us crying, he would bring us over to the other one, and make us hug again. I never wanted to let go. She was like.. a second mother to me.. A best friend, An older sister. And they were all giving me gifts and stuff. Liz and Asa bought me a shirt, I told them not to, but they said it would help me to remember them. How could I say no to that?

The kids were the second hardest to say goodbye to. Abi, 6, Danna, 5, and Jarib (dont pronouce the b) 3. Danna was like clinging to me and not letting go, she didn't want us to leave. She wouldn't even let me put her down. I would go to put her down, and she would wrap her legs even tighter. I cried so hard saying goodbye to her.

Asa had already explained to the kids before hand what was going on, so they already knew. And they didn't seem to like it. Abby kept comming and standing in front of me when i didn't have Danna, and she would just lean into me, and give me these huge hugs. Or when I was sitting down, she would just run and jump onto my lap. I miss her so much. It was so hard to say goodbye to all her too. I cried so hard.

Jarib was already sleeping in the car, so I didn't get to say goodbye to her.. But I cried for her all the same. I miss everysingle one of them. and not being able to say goodbye to Jarib was the worst feeling ever.

Anyways, that was just what I was thinking about right now. I miss Entabledaro, and I AM going back there. Some time. I know this entry makes me sound like a wuss, but i dont really give a flying horses arsssee. I loved these people with all my heart, and I never wanted to leave them. Which is why I am moving up there and living with them. Its already been planned between me, Asa and Liz.

congrats

CONGRATULATIONS MAJEWSKIS TEAM! TEAM FOURTEEN KICKED SOME MAJOR TAIL! TURDSTERS ALL THE WAY.

Anyways, that was just for my team. We had sports day today and my team got in thirs out of fourteen teams! It was so awesome, we played 5 baseball games, 1 fort knoxx game and one round of the obstacle course. We have.. 21 points in total at the end.My team was the greatest ever! I am so proud of us all! It was a mix between each grade [ 6-9 ] and now i really know a lot of the younger kids, and the older [ but i already know the older kids because either A. i just do, and sometimes we talk,or B.They are in my dance class at school. ] So yeah. we got third place!!

My Surprise Party!

Heyy y'all.

So my birthday was on May 9th. And guess what? My bestest friend in the universe (Rebekah Naomi) threw me a surprise party yesterday [saturday May 19th/07]! I felt like the specialist gurlie that there ever was! She is my most amazing friend ever, and I'm not sure what I'd ever do without her!

So at my party was my bestest friend Becky, of course, and my other three amazing friends from youth. Sarah, Crystal, and Jessica. And then some of my most amazing youth leaders, though three of them couldn't come [Doogie, Anj, and Steve] we had fun anyways. The youth leaders were.. Becky[differentone. BeckyToews], Jenny, Phil, Behn, Mandy, Kevin, and Alexa. We had so much fricken fun playing Cranium and then making the losing team go outside in the pouring rain and hug a tree for a minute in bare feet. It was amazing!

I got alot of amazing presents but i try not too much to dwell on that.. i wouldn't care if NONE of them got me ANYTHING. it just rules that they all came just for me. and they worked SO hard in making this all work out for me. It turns out they wanted to do it last saturday. Becky D. told my that BeckyT and Phil [husbandandwifee] wanted me to babysit that night. but they hadn't called me the night before so i just went with my mom to a conference in Surrey which lasted all day. BeckyD was SO mad at me.. and i couldn't figure out why. I was like. Geez Becky, it was only a babysitting job. i'm sorry! I'll do it next time !But no.. it was an amazing day.. i've never had a surprise party before and it just proved to me how much they all love me, and it meant so much to me. I can't believe any of my friends would do something so amazing for me.

Becky you are my BFFFE [Best friend for freaking ever] and I hope I never lose you. You are such a great friend, and you help me out So much, its unbelievable.
I'll try to just call and ask if she can drive me somewhere [which btw she RARELY EVER tells me no] and we end up talking for like.. half an hour. Seriously, she is my most amazing friend ever. and I love her so much.

BECKY NAOMI DOMINGO.. YOU ARE THE MOST AMAZING PERSON. AND I KNOW YOU ASK ME TIME IN AND TIME OUT WHY I AM FRIENDS WITH YOU.. BUT THIS IS EXACTLY WHY. YOU ARE AMAZING BEYOND BELIF AND I DON'T THINK I WILL EVER FIND ANOTHER FRIEND LIKE YOU. I HOPE WE NEVER LOSE TOUCH WITH EACH OTHER BECASUE OUR FRIENDSHIP, I KNOW, WILL LAST OUR WHOLE LIVES. YOU ARE SO FILLED WITH GOD, AND YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT ME.. EVEN WHEN ALL I TALK ABOUT IS HOW MUCH EVERYONE HATES ME. YOU TOTALLY JUST PROVED TO ME THAT I'VE BEEN WRONG THIS WHOLE TIME. YOU ARE AMAZING.. TO FREAKING AMAZING TO PUT INTO WORDS. I THINK I'VE REPEATED EVERYTHING I'VE SAID AT LEAT THREE TIMES NOW, BUT THATS OKAY. I'M JUST MAKING SURE YOU CATCH MY DRIFT. WHEN WE GROW UP, GET OLD, MARRIED, AND HAVE KIDS.. YOUR DEFINITELY GOING TO BE MY KIDDIES AUNTY. BECAUASE YOU ARE FREAKING AMAZING. REBEKAH. I'M RUNNING OUT OF THINGS TO SAY WITHOUT REPEATING ANYTHING A FOURTH TIME, SO I'LL END WITH THIS. I LOVE YOU.

Micah, Shayna, Jess

Hello faithful few that read my blog. Today was an awesome day. I go to a fine arts school so for math, we were learnign about polygons, My teacher, Mrs. Kesslar, took us downstairs into the foyer and told us to get into a group of three and make an equilateral triangle! Haha! And then we got into a group of four and made a square.. then five and a pentagon, and six.. a hexagon.. and so on and so on.

Then my daddy pulls up and it turns out that BEN was in the car.. which meant, MICAH WAS AT MY HOUSEEE!! Yaaaay! So Jessica came over and we took care of Micah. This is the most adorable little baby ever. I love him to pieces... :)


Plus, my mom is going into the passport office this week - she's going to stand in line for ME - so I can have my passport and go to Mexico. YEAH! I am going with my mom, and Impact Nations, to Mexico June 25 - July 6th. Mom has been praying about taking me on a missions trip and really felt God tell her THIS was the one. I'm alittle nervous, but excited too. Mom says I'll be working with orphans, and also helping pray for people in the medical clinic. Plus,I think she's planning on me being a part of her prayer ministry team, during the outdoor meetings.

Anyways...today was an awesome day!

Oh..and yesterday was pretty awesome too! Guess what?!!! I found out that I WON the singing Scholarship! ( Our school went to a choral competition in Pr. George last week, and I applied for a scholarship, that was going to be awarded after all the judges judged the choirs.) Anyways...I found out yesterday at school, I WON!! I'm so excited! I love singing. I wonder if God is going to use my singing for something. That would be cool - but I can't imagine what.

So..yeah..yesterday was a good day too!

Yeah okay, and those last two paragraphs... my mom wrote, lol. I must've left my blog open. Silly Supermom .. writing stuff for me. LoL

Anyways.. this is the REAL Shayna.. Signing off! Bye bye. Love you :)

School..

So I go to a Fine Arts School way up on the mountain. I really wanna graduate from the arts school.. but my parents are making me leave next year! I dont wanna. I'd rather walk home lol. ANYWAYS

So it used to be that we {the students} would just do all four rotations {Dance, Drama, Music, Visual Arts} but now becuz the grade nines get to choose the grade 8s are getting to choose, but only for this year.. not next. I handed my choice form {we hada fill out this form about what we wanted and have a parent/guardian sign it} So its the first day of choice rotations and Mrs. Kesslar is telling us our rotations. My names not called.....? Im like.. "Uhhh Mrs. Kesslar, you didn't call me" Shes like.. "then you didn't hand in ur choices form" im llike.. "I gave it to Mrs. Majewski like... last week!" but long story short. Mrs. Majewski never gave it to Mrs. Kesslar.. so it was like.. a 'Shaynas so horrible cuz she didn't hand in her form' day. Which sucked. Kesslar wasn't very happy with me. I was like.. comeon, not my fault! But oh well.

Anyways. I got the choices I wanted! With all the people I wanted too! So... Im in Choral Music {Singing.. YES!} for block A and Dance for Block B. I was so happy! Yaaaaaay! I wanted to scream! So Im with like.. Jess, and Brook, and Krsytal. And me and Krystal are going for like every single solo there is. if we have to.. we'll make is a duo.. or she sings a line, I sing a line, ya know? Its gonna be soo fun! And for dance.. Im with:
1. Tanya
2. Brook
3.Maggie
4. Jessica
5. Rebecca
6. Anny
And I think Kiera. Its pretty sweet. at least im not the ONLY not-so-uber-flexible person there. It makes it better, cuz then im not so much an outcast.. lol.

Im not exactly shure what else to type up here. Any Ideas? im running low.....

Signed with Love
<3Shayna Marie-

New Years!

5....4.....3....2....1!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Hello everyone, welcome to my FIRST post. Of the new year of course! happy new year everyone! How was your new years eve? what did you do? I went to my friend Maggie house and we stayed up ALL night watching movies, but keeping a close eye on the time, we didn't want to miss the count down. We didn't :) We counted down with the rest of the world, and while we were counting, we called our friend Jill and left her a lovely message on her answering machine of us counting down. Yaay, im shure she was glad to hear us scream into our phone. lol! We took loads of pictures. I'll never forget that night with Maggie, we were meant to be best friends, lol we even finish each others sentances sometimes. Then when I went home, we (my family) did our annual Movie Marathon, or our Moviethon. and I stayed up ALL night then too.. i Finally went to bed around 1 am. but not before calculating that i had been awake for over 37 hours! CRAZY I KNOW! 37.. wow I think thats my new record.. at least untill next year :)
Tell me how yours was.. what did you all do?
Good bye! and Happy New Years!

<3Shayna

Merry Christmas!

**jingle, jingle jingle** Ho Ho Ho! Merry Christmas!
So how did everyones Christmas go? Mine was just fantabulos! See.. when people hear that I had 12 presents under the tree everyones jaw just dropped. but people dont get that my family doesn't get each other Ipod Nanos and... Computers... and.... BIG presents. My family gets us presents that we can use.. That'll last us a long time. Such as.. a storage conpartment.. (a froggy one :P) Slippers.. Socks. That sorta thing. I didn't get much uber fun stuff, like that big presents mentioned above. But I dont care.. Christmas isn't about the presents.. it never was... they are just an added bonus.

Christmas time isn't a time to be greedy and to be mean. Its a time to remember Jesus. He was born on this day.. wasn't he? Well.. maybe not on this exact day, but.. this was the day chosen to remember his birth. "Happy Birthday baby Jesus" thats an awesome song "All year long we'll remember, that Precious gift we get from youuu"

Did you know December 25th used to be a Muslim holiday? Christains took over a long long lonnngg time ago, and renamed it Christmas. Bet 'cha didn't know that.
Did you know that... The abbreviation of Xmas for Christmas is not irreligious.
The first letter of the word Christ in Greek is chi, which is identical to our X. Xmas was originally an ecclesiastical abbreviation that was used in tables and charts. In the early days of printing, when font sizes were limited and type was set by hand, abbreviations and ditto marks were used liberally. Xmas came into general use from the church!


Theres so much about Christmas I bet people failed to know becuz a lot of people are SO obsessed in getting there presents, they are forgetting what Christmas is all about. JESUS!

I got a lot this year.. shure. But thats not what christmas is about. Its about remebering Jesus' birth, and celebrating! So celebrate People of God! CELEBRATE! And always remember, the true meaning of christmas.

Theres my rambling for the day..
Love you all
and hope your christmas was full of jesus and family fun
<3shayna

Today... Wow... today....

Today was HORRIBLE! Totally horrid! So much happened today.. and not good stuff... no.. not good AT all.

#1. Isaac tripped Shauna in P.E today, she hit her head really hard on the gym floor. She then started SCREAMING like someone was killing her! We all thot she was kidding,becuz she usually jokes around and screams and stuff, so we kept on playing basketball.. and then someone tried to make her get up.. and she wouldn't stop screaming!! So someone finally grabbed her picked her up and stood her upright. And then she stopped. But then she didn't know what was going on... she couldn't remember falling.. she couldn't remember screaming, and now Shauna is the kinda girl that even by a look she bursts out laughing, she cant look at anyone without smiling. And she was NOT smiling. she was crying, she was sooo scared that she couldn't remember! When the gym teacher asked her her birthday.. she said it was May 93rd 2006. first off... 93rd?! tahts not even a day in may.. second.. 2006? that would have meant she wasn't even a year old. Yeah.. something was deffinitly wrong. Our math class is on the top floor.. and we were going from math to French which is one floor down, and when we walked down the stairs... she couldn't remember it.. at the bottom step she was like.. WOAH, how did i get here? im like.. Shauna.. you walked... down the stairs! shes like.. no..... i was JUST in math.. and now suddently im down here. We were like.. uhhh Shauna!! No, we just walked downstairs! It was soo scary. I hope God REALLY watches her tonite. A lot more happened with her, but it'd take way to long to write out.
Someone really scared her tho.. someone told her she had to stay with us ( A student told her, not a teacher) Or else she'd fall asleep and die. And we all SMACKED the kid that said it.. and Shauna burst into tears, of course.. she doesn't want to die! And your not supposed to tell someone that.

#2. My friends puppy is dying! Of Hypothermia!!! isn't that saddd?? She (Layla, a little golden retreiever.. i think not even 2 months old) was wondering around outside, and she walked onto the pool.. which is frozen over with ice due to this freaky weather we were having, and the ice broke from under her and she fell in! :( Isn't that horrible! The poor puppy!! And so now shes dying, and there trying to keep her as warm as possible. Her brother is So sad now, becuz its his dog. But yeahh.. its really sad

A lot more happened at school.. but once again.. to much to write out. I gotta go.. i have like.. A MILLION projects to finish before Dec.22... it sux... a lot. Byes!!

Love you all; Mwahh<3
<3Shayna

Rawr!

Rawr!! im so freaaakkkinnnn' confused right now. Sometimes things are just so screwed up. Now is one of those down times, I hate this! I just... i get so confused.. and so caught up in everything, that I dont know what to do. For instance.. All my friends say they're there for me.. but it feels like im alone, no matter what. They are always making plans without me.. not that that usually bugs me.. but then they talk about how much fun it'll be without me.. while im there. thats what annoys me. Of course.. I get up and walk away so they wont notice the tears. I dont think they realize how much it hurts, they're so used to being accepted right away.. not realizing that theres me.. who does't get accepted so easily. They dont realize that not all of us can be as... hmmmmm. I cant think of the word. I know God is with me always, but it still hurts to have all my friends doing this to me. I will talk to them.. I have talked to them.. nothing seems to be working. I love my friends so much and I really dont wanna be losing them right now!

There are some people that have helped me a lot tho.
Mrs.Lainchbury for one. She was the sweetest teacher I ever had. Altho 5 years ago.. I still sometimes come to her when I need someone to talk to. She is the most kind and compassionate person I know, She makes time for you no matter what.. no matter how busy she is.. she'll work while you talk, and it really helps... I just wish I could see her more often, and do more in return for her...She is the kind of teacher that you wish every teacher could just be like. I'll never forget you.. you've helped me so much<3 I love you, and Miss you terribly<3
Mrs.Majewski is one of the best teachers ever. She ALWAYS listens and ALWAYS makes time for you, no matter how busy her schedule is. She is the kind of teacher you wish for on your first day of school. She never makes you feel stupid for anything you say.. even if what you said was completely retarded. And believe me.. if you know me.. you'd know half the stuff I say is completely retarded. Shes the kinda of teacher you'll never forget. I love you<3 I'm so glad to have you as my teacher for the second time<33
Miss Dussin was my teacher last year, now she teaches at a different school.. and I miss her soo much! :( Shes the kind of teacher that made you love coming to school in the morning. She ( along with the two mentioned above) is one of the main reasons why I didn't actually mind that much, getting out of bed in the morning for school. She always let me talk to her after school. And even if she wasn't there for the day (T.O.C) She'd leave us a note somewhere.. telling us how much she'd miss us.. and reminding us to be good. We even thought to throw her a suprise party. I love you and miss you soo much <3 I wish you didn't have to leave us so soon
These are a few of the people that helped me the most during all the hard times I had. Only one of the time was actually really really bad.. but nonetheless all of them were hard. I wish I didn't have to go thru all of this. Part of me wishes I was little again.. so I would've have anythign to worry about anymore.. But im not.. and sometimes it rox, and I love it, but other times it really sux.. and all i do is literally crawl into a ball on the ground and cry.. it sux. But.. I know how to get over it fast, most of the time.

Dont get me wrong.. I have LOADS of good times in my life.. more good then bad. And I owe that to LOTS of people.. too many to name.. but name a few... I can do.
Jessica...Maggie...Sarah...Jill...Shauna...Brook...Tanya...Tricia...Andrea...
Kristie...Christine...Aisha...Taylor...(etc)
And those were only a few. My friends are really good and all, I love them SO much.. I dont know what I'd ever do without them.. thanx guys.. I love you so much... I know we'll always be there for each other.

Especially you Aisha and Jill.. we've been friends since grade 2.. since the Beginning.. and i love you so much, and I think its SOO cool that me and you are still really good friends.. and I love you both for it<3

byes

<3 Shayna

P.S you know who else I really love? Tyra Banks, Yeah yeah.. I know.. I'll never get to meet her.. but shes liek my hero.. I'd do anything.. I wish that I could meet her.. Thats my wish. To be like Tyra.. so I can meet Tyra. I Wish I could so badly.. And If I did.. I'd probably DIE from shock.. I love her soo much, she is SUCH a role model to me. I sign up for everything Tyra haha! including personal newsletters that she writes and sends out herself to everyone that signs up. I love you Tyra!! So much! I wish I could meet you :( <33333

Merry go round.. or life?

Okay, So right now my life feels like one big merry-go-round. I'll feel alright with everything, and then suddenly something with happen, and it feels like I hit the bottom.. hard. So let me tell you that is NOT fun... not fun at all. Actually it really sucks. It hurts too, see.. when I fall sometimes I just wanna scream and get so mad... but on the other hand... my body wont let me. Its like it knows before I do.. that everything will turn out alright.. how does that work? I guess the brain is just a powerful thing. That and the mind... and no they are NOT the same... at all.

When I get back up on the other hand, it makes me wanna scream, and jump for joy, yet part of me wont let me do that either. Its like.. my brain knows not to.. but how? why?? There are so many questions I would like answered.. but I guess I'll just have to wait. Waiting is one of my pet peeves.. haha. When I wait for something, that I really want.. I get this feeling in my stomach, like I want somethign.... REALLY bad.. yet im not quite shure what it is.. ever have that feeling? Its like.. part of you is missing. I really hate it, but on the other hand I love getting up after a big fall. Its nice to know that your back on top of things.. that everythings under control agian.. that you can finally feel good again... that everythings alright. I love that part. I love it when you get the feeling that you've finally pulled yourself out of such a bad fall.. that your standing on your own two feet again, its alot better then falling. Trust me... a lot.

Anyways.. I gotta go, people are wanting me to hurry up and finish so they can read my blog. Byes! Love you all

<3 Shayna

Yesterday and today

Okay so, Today I went to Jessicas new place.. because her mom and other adults were there. They got a pool table set up, so we played for 2 hours.. my feet are aching!!

Yesterday I went to the AYC dance. From 7-10pm.. its dancing non stop for three hours. Yeah it was VERY tiring, and VERY sweaty. Even just walking out of the crowd you cooled down, but then when you walked outside you were like.. :O OMG ITS SOOO NICE!! We were running to the bathroom every 30 min to get a drink from the taps cuz we only had 50 cents and we spent it on a water bottle and between me and my 9 other friends (Shauna, Maggie, Jessica, Sarah, Christine, Aisha, Andrea, Alyxandra & Jill) We each only got like... one sip.. MAYBE two if we were lucky, but there SO much fun.. even tho you go home sweaty and aching, its totally worth the pain.

We taught Shauna how to dance that night, YAY SHAUNA! And I even saw a couple kids from youth.. but I didn't talk to them.. I waved at one of them who was right in front of me.. and she looked at me and looked away.. she was in my grade too.. and even at the halloween party, theres no way she could've known who i was. But ohwell, I had 9 other friends to hang around with. Morgan even hung around us some of the time. And Tyler too. The whole time.. tyler didn't get a single dance.. and then suddenly at the end.. when they play the slow songs, a REALLY pretty girl asked him while we all had our backs turned.. and when we turned around, he was dancing with her! it was sooo cute. We were all like "awwwwe Tyler!!" I only danced with my friends tho. Like Shauna.. and Maggie and all of them.
It was the most fun I've had for the past 4-5 months.
It was truly a night to remember

<3 Shayna

Jessica

Okay, so as some of you may already know, this is my "so called" best friend, Jessica. The only reason im saying "so called" Is because she hurt me yesterday, REAL bad.

Jessica called me and asked if she could come over last night, her mom and dad are having problems and her mom is moving out of the house, and she wanted to show me the house they got. Seeing as it was close by, i said shure.. not thinking any harm would come to going to see her new housee..... right?? Well, we get there, shes showing me the house.. and im like ( Kay wait, when I talk, its italic, when she talks its bold?? Ka peesh??) Okay, so i was like>
"When do you get the house??"
" We get the key in fourteen days!!"
" Thats awesome! so, when do u move in?"
" The end of the month"
" Sweet, so, you'll be having your birthday party in it??"
"No, we're going Camping, I already told you that"
" oh yeah, sweet... whose all going??"
" I already told you that too, your not coming... Just Maggie and Kevin"

Okay... GREAT so my so called best friend... isn't inviting me to her birthday... WHY NOT? Would you like to hear why?!
Because shees only allowed two people.........! I can understand why she invited Kevin instead of me... Kevin is like her brother.. but Maggie?! why?! Maggie was also a really good friend of mine.. but me and Jessica have been friends for longer... since Grade 4.. only one year less that Kevin and her have been friends... So why should Kevin come, and not me? I know this probably sounds really harsh right now.. but im really confused! I thought we were best friends! I know birthday partys aren't everything... but they're special. To me anyways.. espcially 13,16,and 20.

I called my friend Sarah and told her.. guess what? Shes not invited either! Whats wrong with us?! Its really starting to get on our nerves. Shes spending almost all of her time with Maggie.. AND all she ever talks about now.. is "Last time Maggie was over....." No offence... but honestly! We're getting replaced by the new kid!!!

Sorry, thats just my little rant. I gotta go.. Mary wants on.

Bye .. thanx for listening

<3MissShayna

Sunday

Today I went to church. (like I do every Sunday)
Youth.. It was... okay. its too easy for all of us! No offense, but I was actually bored... like litteraly bored! It wasn't the youth I go to at night tho, It was just one of the moms decided to do youth.. and she was so excited.. I didn't mind going.. but it could've been more active, ya know? Not just like reading from the bible!!

Today there was a new couple in there, The girl was pregnant. We were praying for everyone and they both came down, so I got Marina to come pray with them for me. I was really getting a godly sence off of them, like a radience. It was powerful... extermely powerful. Like a force field for something. Well, thats what it felt like. But it was godly, cuz I could feel Gods Hand on them as we were praying, it was actually really cool! I wonder if they'll be coming back! Haha.

I love my church, It may be small, but its awesome. The only crappy thing is almost all the kids are leaving, Carson is the only kid around my age and then its 3 years older ( Mary ) and three years younger ( Marina). Dont get me wrong, I love Mary and Marina.. But its nice to have people my age there, ya know?? I really Miss the Alexanders, though the time was short with them.. it was meaningful. And now that they're gone.. its like a piece of me is missing! Its like.. I dont know. I hate it, all my friends are leaving the church! First Shanelle, Then Katrina, now the Alexanders! Grrr. Dont get me wrong, I still love church but part of me doesn't want to go anymore.. I know church isn't for your friends, its for God.. but... It sure helps to have friends there.

** GOING OFF TOPIC HEREEE!!**

**TOPIC CHANGE**

**THE ALEXANDERS**

So as I said before the Alexanders left the church, and they were like my best friends. They were always there for me.. if I needed someone to talk to.. Lise and Morgan would always listen. If I needed somewhere to stay to get away from family Drama, Lise would open up her doors for me. I felt so welcommed there.. I felt like part of the family, Like a daughter, a sister.. this probably sounds SUPER corny, but its totally true. Morgan treated me like an older sister, same with Emily, Hailey and Faith.. and Lise treated me like a daughter. I loved it, I felt so.. loved! So.. Apreciated.

Now their gone, they moved to Prince George, and it REALLY sux, but, im not dwelling on that... im happy for them. They found a huge house.. and lots of great friends! They already bought a kitten named Mocha.. and it sounds like there having a blast. I still get to talk to them.. just not as much as I wanted. Not as much as before

Anyways.. Lise.. Morgan.. if your reading this.. I want you to know.. how much I miss you guys! I hate it that you guys moved.. but im glad God is blessing you so much. I hope to come visit you soon!! Love youu

Love you all blog readers!!

<3shayna

Youth

Yesterday I went to the youth group at Central Heights, called lifeline. I didn't think I would like it, I was begging my mom to keep me home... She made me go tho, she said I would love it, but I still didn't believe her.

As soon as we got in.. my ears ached.. it was SO loud... the boys i mean... Screaming and yelling, and wrestling, and just having fun.. the girls weren't as loud as the boys... obviously. We get in ( mom and me ) and we go to find Phil, the Youth Pastor. He talked with us for like a second, and then a girl stepped in, one of MANY Youth Leaders, her name was Amanda, otherwise known as Mandy, she was really awesome. She spent like almost the whole entire time with me..I didn't know anyone but her.. so I just hung out with her.

We basically play games and stuff for an hour, and then we listen to Phil preach, hes actually.. like... super funny! Hes a great pastor for youth! After we go back into the crazy loud room, and play more games. I sorta felt out of place there and I went to the back of the room and stood leaned against the wall.. i didn't know what to do. Suddenly, a girl from my Hip Hop class ( which btw, I've NEVER talked to ) walks up to me and says " Would you like to hang out with me and mmy friends?" alright!!! So her name is Sarah, shes appearently a lot nicer than I thought! Her and her friends like.. welcomed me into there group right away! It was soo awesome! We played ping pong for a bit, and then we left and sat in the hall because it was like.. major loud in there.

Then Sarahs friends parents came and they went home about 5 min later Sarahs Dad came, so I was just standing at the door, I saw Mandi, but she was talking with a leader so I didn't wanna interupt her, ya know?? Suddenly she turns around and shes like... "HEY! I was JUST telling him how I couldn't find you??" Then she turned to the other leader, "Wasn't I just telling you??" We laughed for a bit and then talked about Hip Hop.. and School.. and how she cant remember names! I told her she reminded me of my mom. My mom is really bad with names.. but shes getting better (hehe mom if your reading this... :D LOVE YOU!hehe)

Anyways, Youth went really well that nite, i thought it would be crap.. but it was like... major fun.. and like.. major loud. And I cant WAIT for next week!!

I should go now, I gots some homework to do... WoOt<3
Byebye<3

<3Shayna

(P.S the <3 is a heart, just in case you were all wondering, if you turn the < around and make it point down and put the 3 on top... its a heart!! :D haha <3 byebye)

Yay!!

Okay, so.. like.. PARENTS ARE HOME! yay! flew in last night.
Jessica came over, she deicded to make cookies and wait for them so she could say hi to mom and dad. Haha! Marina and Emma also came over because their parents were picking up my parents from the airport, so we baked cookies for them, "Dad's cookies" ( Altho we should have put more oatmeal in it... but oh well)

We got told they would be home around 11.. so we were making cookies and fooling around,amd the make up war paint just HAD to be involved in all of this, and we decided to make up a dance for them. It like.. 9, so we start and guess what... not even a minute into the song, and mom yells... "Shayna!!! Aren't you gonna come upstairss??" CRAP! So we all RAN to the bathroom and scrub our faces clean.. it will have to be saved for another day.. oh well eh? Maybe next time....

But ANYWAYS, Im SO glad their home.. as most of you probably know. Even if we're not doing anything amazing, its just nice to cuddle with them.. nice to have them here.... after all that time away from them, ya know?

Anyways, I should go.. I'll talk to chu all laterrrrr

<3Shayna

Hip Hop

okay, So today is my first hip hop class.. Im SO nervous..! I Make shure to look like im ready to dance hip hop, but not to go over the top. Im all excited, I get there.. and my stomache turns... 4 girls... 2 are best friends... 2 are best friends... which leaves me... alone. Greeeeaaaaaat. That was the first fault... Second, I wore FLIP FLOPS!! haha yea, i know.. im genious! THIRD, My flip flops where are sweaty so I kept slipping.. and Last but not least, My hair was a fluff ball!

Yup, I had fun.. I picked up the choreography well.. I think, Brittany Richmond ( my teacher ) Said I was doing good... So, I hope I really am.. and shes not just being nice. Shes a really kewl teacher, She prays at the beginning of the class, and shes really fun.. And she laughs in the middle of dancing! Its Awesome, I love it!

I dont really have much to write about today... I just thought I should write about my dance so everyone knows what Im up too these "parentless days".

I talked with mrs.Majewski about my parents gone.. In my journal of course.. Shes a really good help! Im so glad to be in her class! LoL, I actually cried writing my journal one time! Haha! I miss them so much and I cant believe its only... 3 days until they come hommeee!!

I've talked with Patti and Rachel when they were gone.. Patti about friends "stuff" and Rachel.. actually I dont even know.. we talked about so many different things, we just laughed and had a fun time on the phone. I love Patti and Rachel for being there for me! You guys mean so much to me, and im glad your there if I need prayer or.. just someone to talk to!

Anyways.. I had loads of homework.. and i gotta go!!
Byebye!!<3

Today.. I think

i Hello Oh faithful few that read my blog. Haha

Today was just like any other day, School.. Car pool.. home. Oh Joy, haha.

My friends keep telling me I should work on getting my singing to take me somewhere, but WHERE?? I have like.. NO connections..!!
Anyways, I tried to get a clip of me singing on here.. couldn't figure out how.. :( Maybe next time!! if anyone knows how.. that would be AWESOME if you could tell me.

My parents are gone.. as you already know.. it kinda sucks, I mean.. I like Margie, but she basically is TOO quiet. When she calls me and Mary for dinner, we can barely hear her... When she called me, I didn't even know she was calling.. so mary just said louder "Shayna!! Dinner!" And i heard right away and came! I think she thinks im not listening to her.. but its not that.. I CANT HEAR HER!! haha She needs to speak up... a lot. Shes really nice tho, but shes not strict, and TOO quiet, I guess there is such a thing as too quiet!

Other than that, everything is going fine, Mary made tacos tonite, well she made the shells(THANK YOU PATTI CULLEY!) I made the meat. It was GOOD if i do say so myself, hehe!

Yesterday I called Rachel to ask her if I could put her as my emergency contact for school, and we ended up talking for like.. 45 min! hah! Not really on a particular subject, we just rambled on, shes soo funney. i loved it.

Schools.. meh, cant complain, its school. WAYY to much stuff to carry home after school.. im used to just a back pack.. now its a binder, and my Math textbook, and my Science textbook, and my purse, and my ANYTHING else i brought! Haha, its too much to me!

Any ways, i should go.. I will blog again soon! byebye Faithful bloggers! (hehe I still think thats funney)

bibi
Shayna<3