Speech finals

So I got into the speech finals (In front of the school). And guess what? I won first place!!! I am so excited. The finals were on Wednesday March the 28th and the speech districts that my school is sending me too are on Thursday April the 12th.

I'm pretty stoked!

I changed my speech a bit since i posted it on here. I heard a couple people started crying when I was reading my speech. and the digital arts teacher made a DVD of it, so I can keep it and remember that I won! Its the first time I've ever won the speeches, usually I get 3rd or 2nd.

So anyways, I though I should just post to inform you!
talk to you all later!

Love:
☼♫Shayna ♫☼

Speech

okay, so for school I was supposed to write a speech. And so here it is.

Its not really G rated tho, so... be careful with 'little-er' ones reading it, may scare them.

Its about Animal Testing. Tell me what you think, I'm handing it in on monday.


Testing, Testing 1…2… wait, this is tested on what?!

Chair Person,
Honourable Judges
Ladies and Gentlemen
Fellow Students

Today I will be talking about animal testing, and what can be done to stop it. I believe that animal testing is wrong. Even a friendly pet food chain is testing on animals. There are alternatives to animal testing that has the same, or even more, accuracy.

PETA (People for Ethical Treatment of Animals) went to investigate the contract laboratory of ‘Iams’ for about 10 months before reporting back. PETA had said in their actual report that the investigator found dogs who had gone crazy from intense confinement in barren steel cages and cement cells, dogs who had been left on a dirty floor with muscle hacked from their thighs, and horribly sick dogs and cats who were languishing in their cages, neglected and left to suffer alone without veterinary care.
Iams claims that what they do makes a ‘better product’ for consumers.

There are many different types of animal testing, though today I will only be mentioning two. One type of testing is an LD50 test. In this infamous test, animals are force-fed doses of chemicals until they die. The tests inflict hideous suffering on the animals, who endure severe abdominal pain; bleeding from the nose, mouth, and other areas; convulsions; seizures; diarrhea; and paralysis before they die.
Another test, is the “Fish Acute Toxicity Tests” These tests are similar to the LD50 test, except that chemicals are pumped into the water tanks that hold fish until the animals die. The fish endure severe pain, before they are poisoned to death.

Doesn’t sound very appealing does it? And there are still more types of testing! More horrible ways that animal can slowly suffer for our drugs and “beauty”. For example:

Hair spray and bleach is sprayed into rabbit’s eyes and their throats.
Experimental drugs are pumped into monkey’s stomachs thru tubes shoved far into their nose or throat. And most of these experimental animals die from various abuses, and are denied veterinary care.

People take innocent animals and put them through unimaginable pain until they eventually die, all in the name of “Science”. But Mice are not little men, The results of a drug may not have the same effect on a human then it had on a mouse. Therefore the results would be inaccurate.
But there is an alternative to these horrendous tests. Scientists can take human blood and tissue to test the drugs and products on. It is said to have more accuracy then animal testing and this way, no one is hurt.
Animals do not have to be put through so much pain for us. Please, you can help stop animal-testing, all you need to do is not support it. Check the product to make sure that it says it is not tested on animals before you buy. And think about it... do we really need another hair spray?

Thank you.

A Warriors Cry

A Warriors Cry

He looks
over the mountainside
He shall wait.
His heart is true,
His soul is pure
What’s that?
He ducks behind a bush,
Waiting,
For the right time to move
He sees them all
Sneaking slowly
Up the mountain
He’s not afraid
‘Bring it on’
He thinks to himself
Just as all of them reach the base of the mountain
He steps out
From his hiding place
A sword in each hand
He stands
The sun behind him
Creating a silhouette
for all below to see.
They all look up
And begin to rush
The climbing
But, still he stands
Stands ground
He is not afraid
For his Father is watching
Watching and protecting.
Sending more
To help with his aid
Something flashes across the sky
They are coming
He grins
And lets out
A soft chuckle
“If only they knew”
His friends begin
To land softly behind him. Staring down
At the coming danger
But they are still
not afraid
He looks back
On all his friends,
He gives them a nod
And a little wink,
He once again faces
The demons climbing
The mountainside
Casually, he raises his sword
High up into the sky
And lets out
A Warrior Cry
High above the mountains
It carries
A warning for all near and far
That this is the end
Get ready for war
A warrior cry is loud and long
Crying out, loud
like a brilliant song
All his friends join in
Crying together
Over the mountainside
And up into the heavens
Praying for the Lord’s protection
Swords raised high
They all together
rush down the mountain
Going into war
Still you can hear
The Warriors Cry
Ringing loud a clear
Like a brilliant song
While all below
Is Havoc
Gruesome Battle
Down below
Teaching the Demons
Where they should go
Don’t come up here
And cause people to
Go Astray
Stay down below
Where you belong
God reigns on high
Not the father of lies
Get back where you belong
And Suddenly they all began
To Flee
The Warriors Cry Has worked before
But not as well as it has
Today
God has protected us all.
The Battle scene is clean
The enemy has gone
They are no where to be seen
He faces his friends once more
And slowly
He raises his sword
And lets out a warrior cry
Joined by the sound
Of hundreds of his friends
Joining in the cry

And now hundreds of
warrior Angels
Fly through the sky
Watching us
Making sure we’re safe
Making sure demons don’t try
Because God loves you
And he wants to make sure
You’re always safe
And if you ever hear
A soft song being sung in your ear
You’re hearing the cry
Of A Warrior Angel
In Battle
Or Victory.

By: Shayna Marie Dyck

Poems again.

Okay so as many of you already know, when I get bored I write poems and songs! So here's a one I've finished recently. My best friend and I got in a little misunderstanding, so [unplanned] we both ended up writing poems for each other. So here's mine, and hers is underneath.

8:56pm
I remember the day we met
It was a hilarious day
A day I will not soon forget

Mandy found you
And introduced us
Then came in Phil
He made such a big fuss

He told us to be good
He told us to be kind
He said I was now your best friend
And you were now mine.

Pushing us together
What an awkward time that was
We didn’t even know each other
Every single Youth night
There we were
You and I
Hanging out together

You really had become my
best friend
Just as Pastor Phil had
Said

One day I brought some friends
To youth with me
I had no Idea what how they would act
What the after effect would be

They ended up ignoring
You
I wasn’t sure how to react
I kept trying to bring you in too
But it didn’t work

I was stupid and stuck with them
Even tho my true best friend was not with me
I felt so horrible when I got home
I thot we would never be the same good friends
We used to be

Weep ‘till the sea is full
I will not
I will stay strong
Dry as the dessert
When prying eyes look away
Only then, will I flood the world with my
Grief, Sorrow, Sadness

The next day you called me,
Omg, I was so happy!
You began to say sorry
And I said
“Wait, why should you be?”

We talked it out,
now were goodWe’re the very best friends
Just as Phil said we should
<3

[I wrote two.. this is the second one]

Friendship growing like a flower
Friends forever within the hour

Memories we will forever save
secrets we will take to the grave

But then a fight,only once
never twice

She fely very hurt
I got very sad
I didn't mean
To make her feel bad

Laying in my bed
Wallowing in self pity
waiting for someone to ask what was wrong
Needed someone to feel sorry for me

Weep 'till the sea is full
I will not
I will stay dry
Dry as the desert
Only when the prying eyes look away
will I flood the earth with my
Grief, Sorrow, Sadness.

I felt so bad
I didn't know what to do
so I looked up to the sky
and with my Father
I talked it thru.

We talked thru what should be done
I almost picked up the phone
when suddenly it rung

we talked things thru
we were both wrong and right
And in that one phone call
we figured it all out that night


[The one my friend wrote \/]
7:42pm:

I’m not going to jump to conclusions
With everything going on right now
Im losing my grip
The walls are caving in
Feel like im gonna slip

I gotta pick up the phone
And dial the number
Did I do something wrong?
I’m trying to remember

Being ditched
Feeling left out
Hung out with some other friends
But we had nothing to talk about

This friendship just started to bloom
I’m gonna end this pity party
Right here in my room
Stop feeling sorry for myself
And give her a chance
Stop acting like a 5 year old
And put on my big girl pants

So I picked up the phone
And dialed the number…

Whispering willows
Dancing in the breeze
Do they feelings?
Or are they just trees?

Rain falls down
Storm breaks it apart
Is it totally worthless?
Or still a work of art?

Forgiveness entered through the clouds
The rain began to stop
The sky a shade or sparkling blue
And there forgiveness shone through
Hope for someone to be there
Hope for someone to understand
Solid rock formed beneath my feet
Finally I could stand

Done with carrying all this weight
I gave my garbage to him
The only one to satisfy my sorrow, ache, or whim

Forgiveness stayed there in the clouds
The rain had stopped for good
Lifted my face up to the sky
Took off my hood
Someone was there
Someone understood
Friends for life
We looked up to the sky
And firmly we stood

So there you go... poems! yaay. Maybe later I'll put on more that I've written byes : ]

How do u say goodbye?

Today I had to clean the bathroom, its my Saturday chore. I was listening to my moms ipod, and this song comes on "Tonight" by FM static. ( I highly recommend it! ) it goes like this.

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't waitI remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes usWhen it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

This song really hit home. When I was six my best friend, my cousin Lisa, died. She was an adult. and she got married to a guy named Chris. I was only 6. For so long I didn't understand, I thought she was going to come back, I was too young to figure it out. Her wedding was on the day of my fifth birthday. I felt like the specialist little kid in the world.I remember ,tho, I was her flower girl. I remember walking down the Isle and suddenly at the end of it, I stopped. I burst into tears and ran to my Daddy. I sat in his lap bawling. I didn't want her to get married.. becuz I thot if she did... I would never be able to see her again. I was rite. Rite after the marriage (pratically) Lisa and Chris moved to Ontario. Everything was fine until she got into a car accident after dropping her husband off at work. Someone ran a red light and smashed into the driver side of her car. She was 5 months pregnant. But before all that, She gave me a book, "The Veleteen Rabbit", that said in it something like "To my Dear Shayna. Thank you for sharing your most special day with Chris and I" And it went on like that. I still have it. I still cant believe shes gone and its been 7 years. I wish I just would've gotten more time to be with her, even just an hour. I miss her so much. How do you say goodbye to someone so dear to you? She was like my hero...

Back to my question tho. How would you say good bye? I've tried, time in and time out. I know shes in heaven now.. and that shes in a good place, but it still hurts. No Matter what happens im always going to miss her. She was like my best friend, I loved her so much. I couldn't believe that the feelings and thought that were going thru my head during her wedding, were actually true. Its crazy that after all these years i just realized that my fears were true that one day 8 years ago. How do you just let go? How do you say goodbye when its family?

I just wish I could have one more minute with her. One more time. Just once. I love her so much. Sometimes I just wish she was here to give me one of her amazing hugs when im sad.
"Tonight I've Fallen and I cant get up. I need your loving hands to come and pick me up. And everynight I miss you, I can just look up and know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you... tonight."

<3lisa I love you

School..

So I go to a Fine Arts School way up on the mountain. I really wanna graduate from the arts school.. but my parents are making me leave next year! I dont wanna. I'd rather walk home lol. ANYWAYS

So it used to be that we {the students} would just do all four rotations {Dance, Drama, Music, Visual Arts} but now becuz the grade nines get to choose the grade 8s are getting to choose, but only for this year.. not next. I handed my choice form {we hada fill out this form about what we wanted and have a parent/guardian sign it} So its the first day of choice rotations and Mrs. Kesslar is telling us our rotations. My names not called.....? Im like.. "Uhhh Mrs. Kesslar, you didn't call me" Shes like.. "then you didn't hand in ur choices form" im llike.. "I gave it to Mrs. Majewski like... last week!" but long story short. Mrs. Majewski never gave it to Mrs. Kesslar.. so it was like.. a 'Shaynas so horrible cuz she didn't hand in her form' day. Which sucked. Kesslar wasn't very happy with me. I was like.. comeon, not my fault! But oh well.

Anyways. I got the choices I wanted! With all the people I wanted too! So... Im in Choral Music {Singing.. YES!} for block A and Dance for Block B. I was so happy! Yaaaaaay! I wanted to scream! So Im with like.. Jess, and Brook, and Krsytal. And me and Krystal are going for like every single solo there is. if we have to.. we'll make is a duo.. or she sings a line, I sing a line, ya know? Its gonna be soo fun! And for dance.. Im with:
1. Tanya
2. Brook
3.Maggie
4. Jessica
5. Rebecca
6. Anny
And I think Kiera. Its pretty sweet. at least im not the ONLY not-so-uber-flexible person there. It makes it better, cuz then im not so much an outcast.. lol.

Im not exactly shure what else to type up here. Any Ideas? im running low.....

Signed with Love
<3Shayna Marie-

New Years!

5....4.....3....2....1!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Hello everyone, welcome to my FIRST post. Of the new year of course! happy new year everyone! How was your new years eve? what did you do? I went to my friend Maggie house and we stayed up ALL night watching movies, but keeping a close eye on the time, we didn't want to miss the count down. We didn't :) We counted down with the rest of the world, and while we were counting, we called our friend Jill and left her a lovely message on her answering machine of us counting down. Yaay, im shure she was glad to hear us scream into our phone. lol! We took loads of pictures. I'll never forget that night with Maggie, we were meant to be best friends, lol we even finish each others sentances sometimes. Then when I went home, we (my family) did our annual Movie Marathon, or our Moviethon. and I stayed up ALL night then too.. i Finally went to bed around 1 am. but not before calculating that i had been awake for over 37 hours! CRAZY I KNOW! 37.. wow I think thats my new record.. at least untill next year :)
Tell me how yours was.. what did you all do?
Good bye! and Happy New Years!

<3Shayna

Merry Christmas!

**jingle, jingle jingle** Ho Ho Ho! Merry Christmas!
So how did everyones Christmas go? Mine was just fantabulos! See.. when people hear that I had 12 presents under the tree everyones jaw just dropped. but people dont get that my family doesn't get each other Ipod Nanos and... Computers... and.... BIG presents. My family gets us presents that we can use.. That'll last us a long time. Such as.. a storage conpartment.. (a froggy one :P) Slippers.. Socks. That sorta thing. I didn't get much uber fun stuff, like that big presents mentioned above. But I dont care.. Christmas isn't about the presents.. it never was... they are just an added bonus.

Christmas time isn't a time to be greedy and to be mean. Its a time to remember Jesus. He was born on this day.. wasn't he? Well.. maybe not on this exact day, but.. this was the day chosen to remember his birth. "Happy Birthday baby Jesus" thats an awesome song "All year long we'll remember, that Precious gift we get from youuu"

Did you know December 25th used to be a Muslim holiday? Christains took over a long long lonnngg time ago, and renamed it Christmas. Bet 'cha didn't know that.
Did you know that... The abbreviation of Xmas for Christmas is not irreligious.
The first letter of the word Christ in Greek is chi, which is identical to our X. Xmas was originally an ecclesiastical abbreviation that was used in tables and charts. In the early days of printing, when font sizes were limited and type was set by hand, abbreviations and ditto marks were used liberally. Xmas came into general use from the church!


Theres so much about Christmas I bet people failed to know becuz a lot of people are SO obsessed in getting there presents, they are forgetting what Christmas is all about. JESUS!

I got a lot this year.. shure. But thats not what christmas is about. Its about remebering Jesus' birth, and celebrating! So celebrate People of God! CELEBRATE! And always remember, the true meaning of christmas.

Theres my rambling for the day..
Love you all
and hope your christmas was full of jesus and family fun
<3shayna

Today... Wow... today....

Today was HORRIBLE! Totally horrid! So much happened today.. and not good stuff... no.. not good AT all.

#1. Isaac tripped Shauna in P.E today, she hit her head really hard on the gym floor. She then started SCREAMING like someone was killing her! We all thot she was kidding,becuz she usually jokes around and screams and stuff, so we kept on playing basketball.. and then someone tried to make her get up.. and she wouldn't stop screaming!! So someone finally grabbed her picked her up and stood her upright. And then she stopped. But then she didn't know what was going on... she couldn't remember falling.. she couldn't remember screaming, and now Shauna is the kinda girl that even by a look she bursts out laughing, she cant look at anyone without smiling. And she was NOT smiling. she was crying, she was sooo scared that she couldn't remember! When the gym teacher asked her her birthday.. she said it was May 93rd 2006. first off... 93rd?! tahts not even a day in may.. second.. 2006? that would have meant she wasn't even a year old. Yeah.. something was deffinitly wrong. Our math class is on the top floor.. and we were going from math to French which is one floor down, and when we walked down the stairs... she couldn't remember it.. at the bottom step she was like.. WOAH, how did i get here? im like.. Shauna.. you walked... down the stairs! shes like.. no..... i was JUST in math.. and now suddently im down here. We were like.. uhhh Shauna!! No, we just walked downstairs! It was soo scary. I hope God REALLY watches her tonite. A lot more happened with her, but it'd take way to long to write out.
Someone really scared her tho.. someone told her she had to stay with us ( A student told her, not a teacher) Or else she'd fall asleep and die. And we all SMACKED the kid that said it.. and Shauna burst into tears, of course.. she doesn't want to die! And your not supposed to tell someone that.

#2. My friends puppy is dying! Of Hypothermia!!! isn't that saddd?? She (Layla, a little golden retreiever.. i think not even 2 months old) was wondering around outside, and she walked onto the pool.. which is frozen over with ice due to this freaky weather we were having, and the ice broke from under her and she fell in! :( Isn't that horrible! The poor puppy!! And so now shes dying, and there trying to keep her as warm as possible. Her brother is So sad now, becuz its his dog. But yeahh.. its really sad

A lot more happened at school.. but once again.. to much to write out. I gotta go.. i have like.. A MILLION projects to finish before Dec.22... it sux... a lot. Byes!!

Love you all; Mwahh<3
<3Shayna

Tyra Banks

Okay so this post is so totally dedicated to Tyra, becuz I love her. Not only can she model, she she can SING too!! She only ever did one song tho, but its totally her.. and its totally awesome. You can tell its her.. cuz it sounds like her. Shes so beautiful!!!!! Its freaking crazy! She also helps out people alot. Tomorrow on Tyra ( Friday at 4 on Channel 9 or 11 ) She is doing something called 'Beauty 101' And shes sitting at a phone and answering (LIVE) peoples questions.. and helping them out. Then she really helps out this lady who has size 16 feet! It didn't show what it was, but me and Maggie(my friend) guess that it is a closet full of all different kinds of shoes, cuz lets face it.. if you are a woman and you have size 16 feet.. ther aren't going to be very nice dress shoes out there for you. ( Not trying to be mean or anything )

Did you know Tyra also got a 'makeover' to be a homeless person, and hung out with a homeless person on the streets to see what it was like? Yup, its true! Could you imagine? Willingly becomming homeless for a day or so? That would totally change your prospective on everything! She must have been truly determined to do this. I dont think I could ever last that long without food!! As selfish as that may sound, its totally true!!

Once she had drug addicts on her show. Old Drug addicts.. like they weren't addicted any more. She took woman who were all scared on there faces from doing drugs and gave them a total makeover, and got rid (almost) of all the scars from the drugs!! It was sooo cool!

I cant wait to watch her next show.. today at 4!!! :D
Byes! Love you all

Mwahh

Rawr!

Rawr!! im so freaaakkkinnnn' confused right now. Sometimes things are just so screwed up. Now is one of those down times, I hate this! I just... i get so confused.. and so caught up in everything, that I dont know what to do. For instance.. All my friends say they're there for me.. but it feels like im alone, no matter what. They are always making plans without me.. not that that usually bugs me.. but then they talk about how much fun it'll be without me.. while im there. thats what annoys me. Of course.. I get up and walk away so they wont notice the tears. I dont think they realize how much it hurts, they're so used to being accepted right away.. not realizing that theres me.. who does't get accepted so easily. They dont realize that not all of us can be as... hmmmmm. I cant think of the word. I know God is with me always, but it still hurts to have all my friends doing this to me. I will talk to them.. I have talked to them.. nothing seems to be working. I love my friends so much and I really dont wanna be losing them right now!

There are some people that have helped me a lot tho.
Mrs.Lainchbury for one. She was the sweetest teacher I ever had. Altho 5 years ago.. I still sometimes come to her when I need someone to talk to. She is the most kind and compassionate person I know, She makes time for you no matter what.. no matter how busy she is.. she'll work while you talk, and it really helps... I just wish I could see her more often, and do more in return for her...She is the kind of teacher that you wish every teacher could just be like. I'll never forget you.. you've helped me so much<3 I love you, and Miss you terribly<3
Mrs.Majewski is one of the best teachers ever. She ALWAYS listens and ALWAYS makes time for you, no matter how busy her schedule is. She is the kind of teacher you wish for on your first day of school. She never makes you feel stupid for anything you say.. even if what you said was completely retarded. And believe me.. if you know me.. you'd know half the stuff I say is completely retarded. Shes the kinda of teacher you'll never forget. I love you<3 I'm so glad to have you as my teacher for the second time<33
Miss Dussin was my teacher last year, now she teaches at a different school.. and I miss her soo much! :( Shes the kind of teacher that made you love coming to school in the morning. She ( along with the two mentioned above) is one of the main reasons why I didn't actually mind that much, getting out of bed in the morning for school. She always let me talk to her after school. And even if she wasn't there for the day (T.O.C) She'd leave us a note somewhere.. telling us how much she'd miss us.. and reminding us to be good. We even thought to throw her a suprise party. I love you and miss you soo much <3 I wish you didn't have to leave us so soon
These are a few of the people that helped me the most during all the hard times I had. Only one of the time was actually really really bad.. but nonetheless all of them were hard. I wish I didn't have to go thru all of this. Part of me wishes I was little again.. so I would've have anythign to worry about anymore.. But im not.. and sometimes it rox, and I love it, but other times it really sux.. and all i do is literally crawl into a ball on the ground and cry.. it sux. But.. I know how to get over it fast, most of the time.

Dont get me wrong.. I have LOADS of good times in my life.. more good then bad. And I owe that to LOTS of people.. too many to name.. but name a few... I can do.
Jessica...Maggie...Sarah...Jill...Shauna...Brook...Tanya...Tricia...Andrea...
Kristie...Christine...Aisha...Taylor...(etc)
And those were only a few. My friends are really good and all, I love them SO much.. I dont know what I'd ever do without them.. thanx guys.. I love you so much... I know we'll always be there for each other.

Especially you Aisha and Jill.. we've been friends since grade 2.. since the Beginning.. and i love you so much, and I think its SOO cool that me and you are still really good friends.. and I love you both for it<3

byes

<3 Shayna

P.S you know who else I really love? Tyra Banks, Yeah yeah.. I know.. I'll never get to meet her.. but shes liek my hero.. I'd do anything.. I wish that I could meet her.. Thats my wish. To be like Tyra.. so I can meet Tyra. I Wish I could so badly.. And If I did.. I'd probably DIE from shock.. I love her soo much, she is SUCH a role model to me. I sign up for everything Tyra haha! including personal newsletters that she writes and sends out herself to everyone that signs up. I love you Tyra!! So much! I wish I could meet you :( <33333

Merry go round.. or life?

Okay, So right now my life feels like one big merry-go-round. I'll feel alright with everything, and then suddenly something with happen, and it feels like I hit the bottom.. hard. So let me tell you that is NOT fun... not fun at all. Actually it really sucks. It hurts too, see.. when I fall sometimes I just wanna scream and get so mad... but on the other hand... my body wont let me. Its like it knows before I do.. that everything will turn out alright.. how does that work? I guess the brain is just a powerful thing. That and the mind... and no they are NOT the same... at all.

When I get back up on the other hand, it makes me wanna scream, and jump for joy, yet part of me wont let me do that either. Its like.. my brain knows not to.. but how? why?? There are so many questions I would like answered.. but I guess I'll just have to wait. Waiting is one of my pet peeves.. haha. When I wait for something, that I really want.. I get this feeling in my stomach, like I want somethign.... REALLY bad.. yet im not quite shure what it is.. ever have that feeling? Its like.. part of you is missing. I really hate it, but on the other hand I love getting up after a big fall. Its nice to know that your back on top of things.. that everythings under control agian.. that you can finally feel good again... that everythings alright. I love that part. I love it when you get the feeling that you've finally pulled yourself out of such a bad fall.. that your standing on your own two feet again, its alot better then falling. Trust me... a lot.

Anyways.. I gotta go, people are wanting me to hurry up and finish so they can read my blog. Byes! Love you all

<3 Shayna

Yesterday and today

Okay so, Today I went to Jessicas new place.. because her mom and other adults were there. They got a pool table set up, so we played for 2 hours.. my feet are aching!!

Yesterday I went to the AYC dance. From 7-10pm.. its dancing non stop for three hours. Yeah it was VERY tiring, and VERY sweaty. Even just walking out of the crowd you cooled down, but then when you walked outside you were like.. :O OMG ITS SOOO NICE!! We were running to the bathroom every 30 min to get a drink from the taps cuz we only had 50 cents and we spent it on a water bottle and between me and my 9 other friends (Shauna, Maggie, Jessica, Sarah, Christine, Aisha, Andrea, Alyxandra & Jill) We each only got like... one sip.. MAYBE two if we were lucky, but there SO much fun.. even tho you go home sweaty and aching, its totally worth the pain.

We taught Shauna how to dance that night, YAY SHAUNA! And I even saw a couple kids from youth.. but I didn't talk to them.. I waved at one of them who was right in front of me.. and she looked at me and looked away.. she was in my grade too.. and even at the halloween party, theres no way she could've known who i was. But ohwell, I had 9 other friends to hang around with. Morgan even hung around us some of the time. And Tyler too. The whole time.. tyler didn't get a single dance.. and then suddenly at the end.. when they play the slow songs, a REALLY pretty girl asked him while we all had our backs turned.. and when we turned around, he was dancing with her! it was sooo cute. We were all like "awwwwe Tyler!!" I only danced with my friends tho. Like Shauna.. and Maggie and all of them.
It was the most fun I've had for the past 4-5 months.
It was truly a night to remember

<3 Shayna

The colour of my brain

What Color is Your Brain?

At work or in school: I need to be "hands on": I like to play games, to compete, and to perform. I enjoy flexibility, changes of pace, and variety. I have difficulty with routine and structure. My favorite subjects are music, art, theatre, and crafts. I often excel in sports. I like solving problems in active ways and negotiating for what I want. I can be direct and like immediate results.
With friends: Planning ahead bores me because I never know what I want to do until the moment arrives. I like to excite my friends with new and different things, places to go, and romantic moments.
With family: I need a lot of space and freedom. I want everyone to have fun. It is hard for me to follow rules, and I feel we should all just enjoy one another.

Songs

Okay, so maybe there not the happiest songs.. but my friends and I write songs. And these are some of our bands songs.. I will be posting more and I write them.

I can hear

At night I lay awake
Wondering how much I can take
I hear them saying all this stuff about me
Wondering if I can hear

Chorus:
But I can hear
Loud and clear
I can hear you
Want me out of here
Dont worry
you got your
Wish
Im leaving

They stare at me as I go past
Trying to hurt me
Getting in the last laugh
They whisper secrets about me
As I go
They think I cant hear them
but let me tell you
You're in for a rude awakening

Chorus:
But I can hear
Loud and clear
I can hear you
Want me out of here
Dont worry you got your
Wish
Im leaving

Dont mind me
Im just a thing of my past
Clinging onto any bit of hope
That will last
They think im gone
Now is the perfect time
Its time for me to shine
Im going to show them all
Just who they were dealing with
Its time are you ready?
Will you be perpared
Dont you worry little one..
Dont you be scared

Chorus:
But I can hear
Loud and clear
I can hear you
You say you want me to be gone
Just wait
Until its dawn
Then you'll be gone

Dont you worry little one
Dont you be scared
Its my turn now..
To be in controoooolllll
To be in controollllll.
To be in controoooolllll!


Clones

Starin in the mirror shes told to act like them
but why?
They're only clones.
Every single dirty rotten one of them

Clones I say.
They want me to be a clone.
Why should I?
You might as well isolate me
put me in my own lil dome.

She watches them as they walk
Copying their every movement
But thats just not for me
Not for me
Thats something I just
Cant do
They expect me to be a clone
Life ain't easy anymore
when theres no origanality

Clones I say.
They want me to be a clone.
Why should I?
Theres no origanality
No way to tell whose who

Tell me
Whats a world with no origanality?
Whats a world where everythings the same?
Whats a world with no uniqueness?
Whats a world where everyone acts liek a spoiled princess??
Whats a world......
Whats a world......
Thats my world....

I have more... but i cant find them right now. SO anywho... those are two of mine... people tend to think If i right sad songs it means im sad and that my songs relate to me.. they dont... just so you know. Haha!
Anyways.. gotta go.. i gotta get off the computer before i get a head ache
byebye

Shayna<3

Jessica

Okay, so as some of you may already know, this is my "so called" best friend, Jessica. The only reason im saying "so called" Is because she hurt me yesterday, REAL bad.

Jessica called me and asked if she could come over last night, her mom and dad are having problems and her mom is moving out of the house, and she wanted to show me the house they got. Seeing as it was close by, i said shure.. not thinking any harm would come to going to see her new housee..... right?? Well, we get there, shes showing me the house.. and im like ( Kay wait, when I talk, its italic, when she talks its bold?? Ka peesh??) Okay, so i was like>
"When do you get the house??"
" We get the key in fourteen days!!"
" Thats awesome! so, when do u move in?"
" The end of the month"
" Sweet, so, you'll be having your birthday party in it??"
"No, we're going Camping, I already told you that"
" oh yeah, sweet... whose all going??"
" I already told you that too, your not coming... Just Maggie and Kevin"

Okay... GREAT so my so called best friend... isn't inviting me to her birthday... WHY NOT? Would you like to hear why?!
Because shees only allowed two people.........! I can understand why she invited Kevin instead of me... Kevin is like her brother.. but Maggie?! why?! Maggie was also a really good friend of mine.. but me and Jessica have been friends for longer... since Grade 4.. only one year less that Kevin and her have been friends... So why should Kevin come, and not me? I know this probably sounds really harsh right now.. but im really confused! I thought we were best friends! I know birthday partys aren't everything... but they're special. To me anyways.. espcially 13,16,and 20.

I called my friend Sarah and told her.. guess what? Shes not invited either! Whats wrong with us?! Its really starting to get on our nerves. Shes spending almost all of her time with Maggie.. AND all she ever talks about now.. is "Last time Maggie was over....." No offence... but honestly! We're getting replaced by the new kid!!!

Sorry, thats just my little rant. I gotta go.. Mary wants on.

Bye .. thanx for listening

<3MissShayna

Help ME!!

Okay, for some reason the comments wont work now!! So if ANYONE can figure out why... I would LOVE it.. im on the verge of deleting my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanx guys

<3MissShaynaa

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nvm its workin

Sports

Okay so, this year, our school TOTALLY sux for the sports department! NO GRADE 8 GIRLS SPORTS! LIKE COME ON! Its not our fault all our girls are not athletic, why should we be punished for being active? It SO isn't fair!! We should be able to join the other teams! Its unfair to keep all of us non-active when we could be out there playing sports, getting in shape and having fun.. now im not saying we should force kids to be more active, but i honestly think it would help!

Honestly, WHAT IS TO BECOME OF MY GENERATION?! They cant even get up enough energy to play Volleyball, Basketball. Anyways, Mary is kicking me off the computer.. so i will write more about this tomorrow

Love you all

<3Miss Shaynieee

Test

This is just a test to see if it will update my profile! For some reason its not working

Sunday

Today I went to church. (like I do every Sunday)
Youth.. It was... okay. its too easy for all of us! No offense, but I was actually bored... like litteraly bored! It wasn't the youth I go to at night tho, It was just one of the moms decided to do youth.. and she was so excited.. I didn't mind going.. but it could've been more active, ya know? Not just like reading from the bible!!

Today there was a new couple in there, The girl was pregnant. We were praying for everyone and they both came down, so I got Marina to come pray with them for me. I was really getting a godly sence off of them, like a radience. It was powerful... extermely powerful. Like a force field for something. Well, thats what it felt like. But it was godly, cuz I could feel Gods Hand on them as we were praying, it was actually really cool! I wonder if they'll be coming back! Haha.

I love my church, It may be small, but its awesome. The only crappy thing is almost all the kids are leaving, Carson is the only kid around my age and then its 3 years older ( Mary ) and three years younger ( Marina). Dont get me wrong, I love Mary and Marina.. But its nice to have people my age there, ya know?? I really Miss the Alexanders, though the time was short with them.. it was meaningful. And now that they're gone.. its like a piece of me is missing! Its like.. I dont know. I hate it, all my friends are leaving the church! First Shanelle, Then Katrina, now the Alexanders! Grrr. Dont get me wrong, I still love church but part of me doesn't want to go anymore.. I know church isn't for your friends, its for God.. but... It sure helps to have friends there.

** GOING OFF TOPIC HEREEE!!**

**TOPIC CHANGE**

**THE ALEXANDERS**

So as I said before the Alexanders left the church, and they were like my best friends. They were always there for me.. if I needed someone to talk to.. Lise and Morgan would always listen. If I needed somewhere to stay to get away from family Drama, Lise would open up her doors for me. I felt so welcommed there.. I felt like part of the family, Like a daughter, a sister.. this probably sounds SUPER corny, but its totally true. Morgan treated me like an older sister, same with Emily, Hailey and Faith.. and Lise treated me like a daughter. I loved it, I felt so.. loved! So.. Apreciated.

Now their gone, they moved to Prince George, and it REALLY sux, but, im not dwelling on that... im happy for them. They found a huge house.. and lots of great friends! They already bought a kitten named Mocha.. and it sounds like there having a blast. I still get to talk to them.. just not as much as I wanted. Not as much as before

Anyways.. Lise.. Morgan.. if your reading this.. I want you to know.. how much I miss you guys! I hate it that you guys moved.. but im glad God is blessing you so much. I hope to come visit you soon!! Love youu

Love you all blog readers!!

<3shayna