My Gurlies

These are My gurlies. Hailey,Emily,Emma,Marina&Morgan.
I love them soo much! But Morgan, Emily, and Hailey are leaving soon! They are moving to Prince George August 22nd. I am going to miss them soooo much! I cant believe they are really going! If you would like to see more poems about them go to my website
www.justanother--ordinarygirl.piczo.com And click on the Alexanders page. (Dont forget to sign the guest book! :P

Moi.... <3

The artist <3>

The songs I write

I dont know what gets inside of me when I write songs... But all my songs turn out.. fairly decent, but mostly sad I've noticed.

This is mi song to comfort those who have been thru Child Abuse, or just hard times

Strong All Along
Shes sits in a corner
Sobbing into her hands
She feels so alone
She has no place to go
No place to call home

She hears them curse.
Yelling her name
Mad 'cause of work
So they find her to blame

All They feel like doing
Is hiding from the world
The world hasn't treated them right
With the world they always fight
Forced into darkness
When they want in the light..
With the world they fight
..with the world they fight

Hes shut up all day
And into the night
Been locked up for 3 years,
Has never seen the light
He wants his mommy,
But shes no where to be seen
Looking at his clothes
That are too stained to clean.

He cries everynight
Trying to find some right
Calls for his mommy
But only hears himself
Waiting for her to reply...
Laying in his cell.
He bites back his tears..
Trying to be strong
When hes yet to learn
Hes been strong all along

All They feel like doing
Is hiding from the world
The world hasn't treated them right
With the world they always fight
Forced into darkness
When they want in the light..
With the world they fight
.. with the world they fight

They begin to fight
Finding themselves becoming strong
Trying to find a way out
A place where they belong

Escape little ones
To a place where you can be free
Grow little ones be the best you can be
But always remember
Its what makes you strong
Dont forget your past,
You've been strong all along.

All They feel like doing
Is hiding from the world
The world hasn't treated them right
With the world they always fight
Forced into darkness
When they want in the light..
With the world they fight
.. with the world they fight

Cant Hide
How long must I wait?
How long must I do this?
How long will you let this go on?
Im hurting, cant you see?
My heart is hurting,
Aching,
Breaking
Cant you see me?
Can you see what this is doingAm I invisble..?
What can I do?
To be seen by you

Around you I feel naked
Alone and afraid.
You make me feel Invisble
Like my lifes a charade
Im hurting, Cant you see?
My Head, is hurting
Aching
Breaking
Cant you see me?
Can you see what this is doing?
Am I invisible..?
What can I do?
To be seen by you
I feel like im Naked
I feel like Im trapped
My life feels like one big merry-go-round
Sometimes we go up,
Sometimes we go down
I feel like I wont make it through the night
My heart is Aching,Throbbing,
Killing me.
Cant you see me?
Can you see what this is Doing?
Am I Invisble..?
What can I do?
To be seen by you
My face
It doesn't seem right
I scratch it all through the night
You make me feel naked...I cant hide (x2)
Ohooohhh, I cant hideee from youuuuuu

Today

Today Im at the Culleys house.. Its been VERY eventful... (eg. Jeremy gets sent to room... telling us hes peed on his train tracks. Trying to make cookies without the oven on, Playing hide and seek only hiding RIGHT before they catch you) Its been fun... but I'd have to say... The cookie dough made it all worth it!! lol**insider** Geli and Morgan! Jeremy has now decided he eats Bigger Girls... he comes FLYING around the corner, jumps on me and go "AHHHGEEHSDJIRDHAHHHHH!!!!" Pawing at my back, Head, hands...Anything he gets ahold of... excluded all those... 'special' areas. Hes an awesome kid... yeah sure he has attention problems... but hes a cutie

Today is a New Day

Okay well, so far today, I have almost nothing. Burned a CD, did some weeding, Cleaned up a container that i had outside for almost a week now(And you can imagine how much fun that was) I've spent most of my day on the computer... I feel so lazy! I need to get out and do something... ANYTHING! This house is sooo boring! Mom and Dad went out to the Coffee shop, One sister is working.. and the other has been sleeping for who knows how long! So... I'd rather not watch TV so Im stuck on the computer.

I had a REALLY freaky dream last night. I was in the HUGE house with all of the church.. The Baumans, The Culleys, My Family, The Thiessens... etc. And we weren't there one day, and my flip flops went missing when it was time to go. So, I didn't really think much of it, and got into the car... we came back the next day with that church... and After a long day of playing I walked into a room that resembeled my bedroom... and all my pairs of flipflops where there! And i was like! PRAISE GOD! I picked up one pair and put them on my feet. I turned to the door... and there was a girl, That didn't belong to our church... she had raven black hair... and black clothes.. and snow white skin. She grabbed my hand, and i dropped to my knees, thanking her for bringing my shoes back to me... She looked at me funny, and began walking out the door with me still holding her hand... I tried to let go, but our hands had... almost melded together! I began to SCREAM for My oldest sister.... I was shreiking, and getting dragged by this LITTLE TINY girl! Finally I kicked at our hands and they broke free... All i remember doing is having her staring at me as I ran away... Im not sure what would've happened if I stayed with her... Something just didn't feel right... ya know?