How do u say goodbye?

Today I had to clean the bathroom, its my Saturday chore. I was listening to my moms ipod, and this song comes on "Tonight" by FM static. ( I highly recommend it! ) it goes like this.

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't waitI remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes usWhen it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I say
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

This song really hit home. When I was six my best friend, my cousin Lisa, died. She was an adult. and she got married to a guy named Chris. I was only 6. For so long I didn't understand, I thought she was going to come back, I was too young to figure it out. Her wedding was on the day of my fifth birthday. I felt like the specialist little kid in the world.I remember ,tho, I was her flower girl. I remember walking down the Isle and suddenly at the end of it, I stopped. I burst into tears and ran to my Daddy. I sat in his lap bawling. I didn't want her to get married.. becuz I thot if she did... I would never be able to see her again. I was rite. Rite after the marriage (pratically) Lisa and Chris moved to Ontario. Everything was fine until she got into a car accident after dropping her husband off at work. Someone ran a red light and smashed into the driver side of her car. She was 5 months pregnant. But before all that, She gave me a book, "The Veleteen Rabbit", that said in it something like "To my Dear Shayna. Thank you for sharing your most special day with Chris and I" And it went on like that. I still have it. I still cant believe shes gone and its been 7 years. I wish I just would've gotten more time to be with her, even just an hour. I miss her so much. How do you say goodbye to someone so dear to you? She was like my hero...

Back to my question tho. How would you say good bye? I've tried, time in and time out. I know shes in heaven now.. and that shes in a good place, but it still hurts. No Matter what happens im always going to miss her. She was like my best friend, I loved her so much. I couldn't believe that the feelings and thought that were going thru my head during her wedding, were actually true. Its crazy that after all these years i just realized that my fears were true that one day 8 years ago. How do you just let go? How do you say goodbye when its family?

I just wish I could have one more minute with her. One more time. Just once. I love her so much. Sometimes I just wish she was here to give me one of her amazing hugs when im sad.
"Tonight I've Fallen and I cant get up. I need your loving hands to come and pick me up. And everynight I miss you, I can just look up and know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you... tonight."

<3lisa I love you